At 35 years old, I find myself as “the mountain top waterdrop”, now with two chronic illnesses, a lost career, love life gone and the once picture perfect life in total disarray.  

Life handed me, or should I say hurled at me, a tremendous amount of lemons at one time.  This blog is inspired by my struggles and how I’m trying to overcome the hurt, physical and mental pain that comes with losing everything so quickly.  

I was blessed at a young age to spend time in Bali, Indonesia.  I fell in love with this country, the culture and the people. With hurt in my heart and physical pain, I found this place that healed my mind and body at such a young age.  Fourteen years later I find myself searching for the love, peace and happiness this place brought me.  I find myself desperately longing for the vibrancy and health that nourished my soul.  

Join me as I find my way back up the mountain in search of my Bali. 

“That’s you, drops of water and you’re on top of the mountain of success. But one day you start sliding down the mountain and you think wait a minute; I’m a mountain top water drop!  I don’t belong in this valley, this river, this low dark ocean with all these other drops of water. Then one day it gets hot and you slowly evaporate into air, way up, higher than any mountain top, all the way to the heavens. Then you understand that it was at your lowest that you were closest to God. Life’s a journey that goes round and round and the end is closest to the beginning. So it’s change you need, relish the journey.” – quote from the film “I’m still here” 

Anastasia Lande holds an MBA in Sustsinability and is currently working on her dissertation for a doctorate in Global Business Sustainability.  She resides on the West Coast.